Objectification is No Sensation.

This is not a ball and I'm not walking               Sex Siren. 

Being objectified kind of feels good when you're not used to being thought of in that sense. It can boost your confidence and make you feel better about yourself. Sometimes we all need to feel wanted. However, when it's something that isn't foreign to you and happens all the time, it becomes annoying and hard to appreciate. Being thought of in a sexual way lets you know that someone finds you attractive. I've always taken it in the sense of someone wanting to have sex with me. In my experiences of  being objectified it has always just been sexual. Nothing more. Is it too much to want to be thought about beyond the outer appearance? Being made to feel like a piece of meat (personally) doesn't make me feel that hot all the time. I would rather be wanted for what's inside of my head than how my body looks. Being attracted to someone and looking at them as a sexual object is two different things. When you only come across guys that think of you as a sexual object you kind of think about how you're coming off to others. I look at myself and think about what it is that might be the cause of others to think about me in that way. It can be frustrating when you don't see what it is that draws that kind of attention to you. To me it seems like I'm wanting too much at the moment. I would like to find someone that is just as into my personality, intelligence and interests as they are to my appearance. Not asking to jump into a relationship but exploring the idea of dating shouldn't be a lot to ask for. 

You Think You Know Me? (word on the street is that you do)

The guy you think you know isn't just the guy you know him to be. No one really know's the guy inside. On the outside he comes across as a caring individual that is very bubbly and personable. He's always upbeat, full of energy, and quick to make others laugh. All of these things are honest characteristics of his being, but there is a side that isn't upbeat and bubbly. It actually is a bit gloomy and lonesome. Even though he feels alone he carries on. Always with a smile on his face he goes out of his way to fulfill the wants and needs of others. Lending an ear to many associates that think of him as a friend. They come to him with their problems, dilemmas, and various situations then they're gone, not knowing all that he has going on in his life. Maybe one day someone might ask if he needs to borrow an ear just to get some of the many things out that he harbors inside. Some look at him and think that he has it all together when everything is actually falling apart. He is insecure, lonely, and hard. Not knowing what's going to happen tomorrow, he just does what he can to make sure that he is ready for whatever may come his way. Indulging himself into things that he is passionate about acts as an escape from it all. Dancing barefoot in the studio feels like home. Taking the corner of the mat and preparing to flip, and travel across the floor lets him be invincible. Those are the moments that he lives for. Being free with nothing keeping him down. Maybe one day he will find someone interested in how he feels, or that will be there for him as he is for others, but until then he has his love for his craft. May it continue to get him through.

What is Love?

love/ləv/

Noun:	An intense feeling of deep affection
Verb:	Feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to (someone): "do you love me?".
Synonyms:	noun.  affection - fondness - darling - passion verb.  like - be fond of - fancy - adore

That's the definition of love and there's so much more to it as well. Is that what you're looking for? Most people don't know what exactly love is and the others just don't care. In most cases in the gay world that's true. Where one maybe looking for love the other is more than likely only looking to love what's in your pants. It's sad that what may have seemed to be a relationship to you was just convenient for the other person to get their 'needs' fulfilled until they moved on to someone else. It seems so easy for people to talk about sex and to ask for it, but going on a date or just getting to know someone is weird in the eyes of most of my peers. Love is lost. Everyone has in their head what they want, but in most cases their actions don't show that that's what they need or that they just aren't ready for it.

SEX
It seems to be the only thing that anyone wants now a days. For most it trumps any romantic gesture or meaningful thing that one might do for another. Is romance truly just a thing of the past? Personally I think romance adds to the whole sexual experience. Sex is good but it is so much better when you are connected in ways that are more than physical. Go on a date and let it build up to that page. Sexual pleasure is a quick orgasm and the journey to that release. When there is a connection or attraction beyond the physical there is more than just the pleasure that you're getting by being stimulated sexually. Your mind and body are being stimulated. Chances are when you finish you'll want to carry on or leave if it's just a hookup. Being attracted to someone beyond the physical leaves much more to be desired sexually, and mentally.You'll want to see them again. So why settle for empty sex when it can be so much more than that.

How Do You Love?
I can't tell you how many times I have gone into a situation with a guy thinking that I'd get all that I put into something in return. I've never been more wrong in my life.  Because of how I am when I love someone I personally don't expect all of the same actions in return so I won't be let down or disappointed. That's just a defense mechanism that I have. My characteristics of being a good friend indicate to me that I'd be a good boyfriend (IN MY OPINION). When I come to love someone or fall in love, I'm all in. Anything I can do for that person is done without question. Feelings can sometimes be scary. Sometimes you can surprise or scare yourself when thinking about how much you feel for someone. Knowing how the other person feels is imperative! Being aware of how they feel for you can kind of give you a sign on whether you need to slow your roll or if it's too much for you to handle if you're not ready for that. All in all I think you should know how you would love, what you are willing to do for someone.